Don't get anxious, I am not one of THOSE people that starts listening to Christmas music in August (not that there's anything wrong with that...LOL). It's just that something rather joyous happened today. I was watching my daughter as she quieted down for her nap, and suddenly I was hit by this overwhelming sense of happiness and in that moment I actually felt myself exhale a little bit.
Since Maggie had joined our lives, I have to admit that I have been a little tightly wound. I have had some moments where I didn't feel the great knot in my stomach, but they have been short lived. For the most part I feel like I have been holding my breath waiting for the inevitable other shoe to drop. But today, for the first time, I just took a pause to bask in the sheer joy of it all and let the breath go. Granted it wasn't a full release, but it was something.
I feel like I need to keep reminding myself to enjoy every moment, that remaining in a constant state of worry is really no way to live. I keep looking forward to a time when I won't have to worry and for some reason I always think that it is just upon the horizon. Friends and family are constantly advising me to live in the now, which is something that has always been a little difficult for me, but I am trying.
So for the pic of the day, here is Magalicious with her Auntie Breeyn, who BTW bought the beautiful party dress that she wore after the Baptism. Hopefully, Mags will take after her fashion sense....