I could finally finish Maggie's birth story and post that....
All these things to talk about, but instead I let the blank screen completely overwhelm me and give me a mini panic attack.
That is not what blogging is supposed to be about.
I started blogging because I don't have that many friends with kids and I wanted to be a part of a community of moms, so I wouldn't feel so alone. Blogging was definitely not supposed to make me feel worse. When I started I used to post everyday, but lately that just hasn't been possible. I have picked up some more hours at work and Maggie is going through a growth spurt (I hope this passes) and has been up every night for a night feeding, which I thought we had gotten rid of. Both of these combined with the fact that I am still not sleeping that great does not put blogging high on my list of priorities, especially when it can put me into a tailspin.
So I am going to ease up on myself. If I miss a day, it's not the end of the world. I will not join any more 30 day memes (that one really upped the anxiety), unless it is something I think I can handle. And if I discover a few days in that I can't handle it, then I am allowed to quit. Blogging is not my job. It is supposed to be a relaxing pastime, and if I have to keep reminding myself, then why am I doing it??
Wow just writing all that and really letting it out has made me feel a lot better. I feel my blood pressure slowly decreasing.
I blog because it is fun and I will continue to do so as long as that it true!